i. r.e.a.l.i.z.e.~!!

i woke up dis morning..and suddenly i realize
how stupid i am thinking bout some other people
dat never think bout me...!
y should i concern bout them while they
never care bout me...
but all dat attitude comes naturally
i juz cant avoid it..
i do care bout some people..
u noe i'm very positive in frenship..
i willing do everything except da bad one la..
for da name of frenship..
unfortunately they only using me..
they treat me like rubish..
when they need my help they will call or sms...
but when they dun need me they juz ignore me..
i feel like i'm such a fool~!!
i juz dun understand y they like dat...
i give frenship but they give me shit..
i'm sorry but now i'm not gonna let them
using me again...like what i post b4 dis
"what u give u get back"..
damn u~!!!

w.h.a.t u. g.i.v.e u. g.e.t b.a.c.k~!!

remember dat fucking word~!!
if u treat me nicely i will nice 2 u too..
if u treat me like a bullshit..
i give u more than bullshit..
i dun care..
u juz can get da fuck out from my life
okeh~!!!

h.a.t.e~!!

i extremly hate myself for
being so fucking nice
to my frenz...
but in the end what
did i get??
only pain~!!
n dats so suck~!!

f.u.c.k.i.n.g. f.a.c.t.~!!

dis is fucking fact~!!
everything dat we give..
everything dat we do..
all da sacrifice..
to someone dat we care..

we will never get da same too..
or everything will be forgotten
after a while..
easy rite??
so dun bother urself
into dis fucking relationship..

dis is not bout hoping dat
dey repay what we do..
juz want them 2 appreciate
what we hv done..
open ur heart n eyes~!!
can't u see dat??

h.i.d.i.n.g.~!!

i'm crying...
my heart hurt so badly..
but i pretend a lot..
they see me as da happiest person..
owez give big smile..
owez entertain them wit jokes
dey dun even noe dat inside me
i am suffering...
i owez dissemble my real feeling..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh....
dis is bullshit~!!!

i'm. s.i.c.k. o.f. d.i.s. l.i.f.e~!!

i'm SICK of dis life~!
life is so fucking unfair...
people around me owez lucky
but me owez hapless~!!
why??

i noe there are another people
dat more hapless than me
unfortunately they not my frenz
i'm compare myself 2 people around me
people dat i've known..my FRIENDS~!!

OMG y i hv 2 face dis situation..
i hv no strength..
i'm human being..
human being dat weak
2 fight ur destiny....
i juz cant bear it anymore..
arghhhhh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!