T.h.i.s. L.i.f.e.~!!

Hidup ini tidak seindah yg aku sangkakan..

bnyk cabaran & dugaan harus ku tempuh..

apa harus aku lakukan??

utk terus bertahan menghadapi rintangan hidup ini..

aku tahu aku tabah..

aku tahu siapa aku..

tp??

Mengharapkan hidup ini sentiasa cerah spt mustahil..

adakalanya hujan datang membasahi diri..

hanya kekuatan diri diperlukan

tatkala musibah menimpa..

setabah mana pun hati aku..

sekuat mana sekalipun diri aku...

tetap juga roboh, tewas dilanda badai..

namun tiada siapa yg tahu..

ku pendam segala luka & duka dihati...

Aku bangun & terus bangkit..

membaiki segala kelemahan diri..

berharap senyuman ini terus terukir..

melayari hari demi hari yg belum pasti indahnya..

akan kugagahi diri ini

selagi hayat dikandung badan..

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b.o.r.i.n.g~!!

"Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku,
tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya"
bla..bla..bla..

F.i.n.a.l.l.y.~!!

Finally..

oh god am i doing the rite thing??

please guide me..

it's finally over..

hopefully I'm strong..

no turning back!!

no regret!

btw I'm disappointed..

frustrating wit ur action towards me..

i give u so many chances

but u hv thrown it..

hope u satisfied wit my decision...

dun find me anymore!

erase me, erase the memory!!

no more persuading!

hmm gudbye!

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how could this happen to me??

arghhh..

i'm so damn tired of dis situation..

hoping da situation would be different

but

its still da same..

when it would be end..??

i juz dunno..

A.t. o.n.e. t.i.m.e.~!!

hv u feel like dis
want 2 msj ur frens..
u type msj
u delete back..
u type msj
u didn't send..??

hv u feel like dis..
want to greet ur frens
but u shy
want to chit chat
but u dun hv an idea...

so if u do..i understand..
coz i also like dat..
i dunno why..

maybe we scared they think wrongly!
( misinterpret our intention )
maybe we afraid they might not replying..
( bz, not credit, bla3 )
maybe we actually not close enough...
( we think we close but vice versa )
maybe we only want to be fren wit them..
(clap one hand??)

so many maybe's
so what shud we do??
hmm..

N.a.h.~!!

Nah..
there u go..
finally..
yesterday night at 8 p.m something
suddenly my phone ringing..
i received a msg..
from a fren yg sudah lama
tdk mendengar kabar brite drnya!!

Him :- "Oit!wtpe ha?"
Me :- "Makan..nape?"
Him :- "Haha..sje tnye,gua bru brcrai smlm..huh"
and the msg continue about 20 msg..
advice & persuading msg
n he ending wit silent..
last msg he send
"jp bz"

But dis is not the point..
the point is after all dis while..
he "jarang" msg me..can count wit finger..
so u all can make ur own conclusion..

"da putus br nk cari aku kn"

ok la tu kn..ye idok??
another msg!
Me:- "Ye la kn..da putus br nk cr aku..klu x, hampeh la nk msj aku"
Him:- "haha..xdop la g2, bz skek sblm ni smpi hp pn ltk dlm stor"

logik xalasan tu?? msj girl bley..
but when it comes to fren??
bz la...hp dlm stor la..bla3...
i'm not hoping they msj me 24/7
but juz tny kabar or
something yg wat kita rasa useful! dihargai!
so korang dpt wat kesimpulan lg x??

btw i'm not angry or something touchy..
but u noe..dun leave ur fren juz bcoz u hv girlfren..
dis is lesson 2 all guys out there!!
Frens is important too..
bcoz in the end u'll find ur frens..
now u back & msj me..boring katanyee..
too many times daa aku kene cmni...
seb bek la aku ni baik hati ;-p
so pasrah je la..

p/s:- to tuan empunya badan klu baca neh..
jgn la terasa..aku ok je..ni sbg pengajaran
buat sume..coz aku tgk sume lelaki yg b'pacaran
mesti lupa kwn die..!!!! cari time perlu je..time bosan bla3..
wak2 lain 24/7 berkepit / sms-ing awek..bla3.
ye idok??
ok Muahahahha

W.H.Y.~!!

Why?
why sometimes u ok..
n sometimes u not??
i sumtimes confuse..
what shud i do..what shud i think..?
are u series..or juz playing around..
dun give fake hope..

i dun force u..if u dun like
juz say it..dun pretend!!
juz end it..
i noe u r gud people..
maybe u juz try to be nice by not hurting me..
but its ok..i'm ok wit that if u juz str8 2 the point..
no need to take care of my feeling..
its u..its urself..
& u decide..
rather than i feel u r cheating on me..
it's better u be honest..

well i'm glad wit u sometimes..
maybe we need some space..
so i decided not to find u at this moment
except u start 1st..
dun worry..
i'm ok whatever ur decision!!

btw have a nice day..
;-)